I am so down...
why there is a lot happening to me lately that makes me feel really down..??
thats too much for me..
why i need to face all these things??
i know that there's a lot of ppl who got bigger problems than me..
but now i just cant take it anymore..
it seems so hard, i've already tried my best to face it.. really..
i've already tried my best to solve it, make it better..
but all that i do also not good enough...
im so in pain right now..
i feel my head want to burst out..
i dun hv anyone to share my burdens..
i cant always rely on other ppl to share my burdens..
i also know that other ppl also got their own problems need to think..
but i just cant go through this alone..
but i dunno wat should i do and who should i find..
even though i know that crying every night also wont solve the problem, but somehow it can make me feel better a bit..
i pray to god a lot lately.. putting a hope on him to help me go through this..
if everyday i keep going on like this then how can i continue my life??
how can i do my exams next week well??
of course i also want to move on from this problem..
but i just cant..
i feel like i've been trapped inside a cave, a dark cave that i see no lights at all in it..
where should i find the light??
where should i find a way to get out??
is there anyone out there who will help me??
is there anyone out there who can take me away from this dark cave??
will i ever get out from this cave??
or i will just die here??
i dun wan to give up..
i dun wan to stay in this cave forever..
please anyone let me know how to get out??
i really dun wan to keep going like this forever..
like i've been running but im not moving anywhere..
i feel hopeless..
lonely..
sad..
disappointed with my self..
i hate me!!
to graduate sooner ==
Sherly Gunawan
February 2010