somehow i just still cant accept..
after all that we've been through..
after all that we've done together..
its so easy for him just to give up..
if he doesnt want to be serious at the first place then why should we start?
i've done everything that i can do..
i give whatever i can give to him..
i give everything..
and now its so easy for him just to ask me to let go and forget everything?
im not that kind of person who can easily let go of something that i really love..
something that will make me can sacrifice anything in life..
im just not like him, who can easily say forget, let go then can be so easily to really forget n let go..
if it is so easy to forget something, there wont be any suicides or murders cases..
or even there wont be any stressed people in this world..
i understand that feeling now, when there is so much hope in you, then suddenly some people just steal it away, they dont care about the other ppl's life..
how important that is for other people..
i am crazy im a psycho now though..
i also dunno why i become like this..
my friends say where is the cool n calm natasya..
who can handle any stress any emotions..
im not like that.. i may look calm, but inside me im really burning to the max..
i wish i can straightaway disappear..
so those ppl who done that to me can realize hows the feeling of guilty,
same like as my feeling when somebody take the most important thing for me now..
i really hate my self..
to graduate sooner ==
Sherly Gunawan
February 2010