ystdy was fun.. playing with snow n all of those with snow stuffs since its my first time to see snow in my whole life.. and its freezing...
even though i always keep myself busy with friends if im at home got nothing to do..
i still cant stop thinking abt him.. how?
i also cannot keep going out having fun with friends.. this month i finish all my first month salary already.. keep going out like that..
still cant help me either :(
what should i do?
finish all my money just to escape myself frm thinking about him, still cant stop thinking abt him though..
if i stay at home do nothing, still will think about him..
if i work, ohh even every work that i do also will still reminds me of him..
and thinking abt him always make me feel sad, broken..
i really lost hope..
im still lucky there are my friends around me who will still be there for me to accompany me when im sad..
but the dont really help me throw all the sad things.. they just can help me to escape for a while..
and i cant always rely on them.. they also got their own problems n stress..
im trying to forget him, to forget all the happy n sad things that we've done together ..
but i just cant.. its killing me just to forget all the good things that happened between us..
i keep thinking abt last june how happy i am to meet him..
last jan how happy i am being together with him..
how happy i am just to be with him..
i just cant erase all those memories..
i always keep thinking time will heal everything..
lets see how long i still need to suffer..
i really cant bear with it.. its too much for me..
to graduate sooner ==
Sherly Gunawan
February 2010